I’ve been going through our conversations and I’m still in shock how and why you did this to me
You said things securing me with your love and honesty
That we’ll make time soon
Na “babawi” tayo sa mga oras na lumipas na hindi tayo magkasama
You asked me once kung gusto ko na ba to tapusin
Pero I told you
To just wait coz we’ll be ok coz I know we’re ok and the only thing that keeps us shaky is not seeing each other for weeks
I wont leave you hanging naman eh pero why were you the who left me hanging😢
Time passed by and we managed to be ok, being busy with our own priorities kept us ok
But little did I know, you we’re spending your time with somebody else , to keep you company
Ako ba siya??💔😢
Is time and company signifies love?
Is time and company defines relationship?
Was it all about the two all along??
I asked for patience and forgiveness sa pagkukulang ko and you told me na “ok lang na babawi naman tayo sa sembreak” you gave me assurance of our relationship😪😢
I believed you, I trusted you
I deserve to know why but you keep on hiding things just like how you hid your 3 months affair with somebody else
Could somebody tell me if I was loving her right or just merely being gullible?
Too painful 💔
Yes I gave you hundreds of reasons to leave me before but you accepted me back
And with that I gave you thousand of reasons to ask for an apology and make it all up to you
From that day
I WAS DOING THOUSANDS OF REASONS FOR YOU TO STAY, FOR THIS RELATIONSHIP TO WORK
I fought for you, I accepted every heartache, I was honest from the very beginning, and I trusted you 100% that you wont break my heart again
You still did
I’m having a tough time enduring every bit of PAIN I’m feeling
I can’t take it anymore but I have to be strong for the people who cares and truly loves me
Hatred is not an option but with all honesty its eating me and I have to find my way back to serenity,. This is not the end but, i’ll start to love myself more and gain back all the things I’ve invested that I lost in just a snap,.
May GOD bless me and wipe every tear that falls into my eyes
I will be ok
Life is not a fairy tale where you can have the happy ending
It may exist but in my story it doesn’t
Things have been very rough for me lately I was pulled down by people who doesn’t even know who I really am
I thought I had this someone beside me who would patiently wait for my apology and surprises to make up for all the lost I gave
And yet again I was wrong
Life is unfair, full of surprises, things do happen when you least expect it
I’m furious for what had happened coz I know I dont deserve every bit of it, I know deep inside me that I wasn’t the perfect girl but the right girl for you
You’re at that point na you just had to leave me hanging and be with somebody else,.
Is it really that easy??? 3 years, 10 months and 23 days
And 3 months of it you were in your cloud 9 with somebody else,.
It was not all your fault , I have a blame to share also but why does it have to be like this AGAIN?
Was once or twice not enough?
You saw it coming and yet you decided to have it all your way for 3 months,.
3 months in the making niyo ko niloloko
And now for sure you’re happy at each others arms,. Is happiness a price of betrayal which I don’t deserve??
I thought it was all me but no, i was wrong, the same way that I was wrong to give you my 100% trust again to believe that we both changed,. Hindi nga talaga lahat kayang mag bago
I cant change the fact na you’re happy with your girl and obviously I cant do anything about it but just cry and cry and mend my broken heart alone
You’re lucky you have a fall back and you dont have to experience what I’m into right now,.
Thank you for letting me go from your 3 months of lies
3 months when I was so down and yet I thought you were there all along
Enough is enough
I promise to myself that now that I’m at a point of devastation,
I will be at my highest peak thanking you for being the reason why I strived hard to stand on my own two feet alone
Thank you for the love
And more importantly
Thank you for the heartache
I just dont get it why do you have to be so protective to your phone if before you dont even care every time I try to browse things on it
Im puzzled up
Are you hiding something?